Sunday, August 1, 2010

Journal

Lately I've been sad since it is summer people slack on their blogs. I include myself in that. But I still like to read them even when I'm not writing. So I get bummed when there is nothing new posted.

So while I can't change how often others write, I can write more often in mine.

So tonight a little journalling. It was a nice Sunday. We only went to part of church because James needed to leave early. He drove down to scout camp tonight because his brother is receiving something big down there. But church was really nice. I felt the Spirit and just had reconfirmed to me that God knows and loves me. We sat behind my parents and part way through Sariah said I want to go sit with papa (my dad). Seeing her go climb up next to him just brought tears to my eyes. She has such a love for him and asks to see him all the time. I'm trying to capture as much as I can on video or photos but mostly I just try to live and really be in that moment. Really appreciating this precious time we have with my dad. I have felt so blessed to have him for so much longer than we expected. One of the hardest things for me was knowing that my kids wouldn't "know" him. But I have been blessed. I do not know how much Sariah will remember but I know that right now she KNOWS her Papa. And she loves him greatly. In this way my prayers have been answered.

3 comments:

KC Mom said...

I was thinking the same thing about blogs...that people seem too busy to update often and then I got busy too. I think you're right about your prayers being answered.in a lot of ways. I'm glad your Dad has been able to stick around longer then anyone thought too. What a huge blessing for your family.

Kiera said...

Today marks 30 year since my sister, Sharmayn graduated from this earthly experience. 30 years... and yet it seems as if it was just last week we were together eating pretzels and marshmallows. Our family's moto was to live in the moment... just as you are doing. Enjoy the small moments.. lock them in your heart... they will be there as you rock your babies to Wonderland... It is there, in the silence, that I feel closest to Sharmayn.. Rocking my babies and remembering my moments with her. Sometimes I imagine what life would be like if she were physically here... being the awesome Auntie that I imagine she would be... and then I realize the blessings Our Father has given us is friends who will fill that gap until we are together again...
I love you Sam.

Jen R. said...

Hi, I'm officially commenting! My dad's grandfather name is Papa as well, this was really touching. So sorry to hear about your dad.