Debate

I always have these debates about doing a private blog.  I do use my blog as a journal of sorts.  It is a public journal.  Although I have posted blogs that are very personal and display a lot of my inner self, I do still know this is public and so therefore hold back or don’t post everything.  But I’m a lousy journal writer.  Yes, I have a journal in my nightstand and I probably write it in about 4-8 times a year.  Usually when I’m really upset and need to let it all out.  But I realize that I should do better at just writing out my thoughts and using journaling to clear my head.  Problem being when do I make time to do this.  Often I write my blogs from my phone as I nurse Eli.  But last Sunday, I taught a lesson from Nephi when he was having a discouraging time.  One of the points was that he took time to write.  Now for the lesson this was a fairly minor point.  But for me, it really struck a cord.  I find that I’m easily overwhelmed lately and need to find more ways to release stress and anger.  I say anger and don’t mean I’m an angry person.  But I find with my hormones out of whack still that I get anger or down a lot more easily than when I’m level.  And since I’m still nursing, well yeah I’m still outta whack.  So yes this is why I need a private blog.  So I can ramble like this and not have to proofread before posting!    I believe I will try it.  Worst case scenario, I don’t ever post to it either! hehe