Connection

We've had a lot of snow in KC. I mean a lot. And I don't have school aged kids so having school out only mildly effected us (Sariah missed 2 days of preschool). But I have the worst case of cabin fever. With 3 littles it is hard to talk myself into bundling everyone up to brave the cold. Also it is the end of the month so I'm on the end of my budget rope. So I didn't want to add temptation to just spend more money.

But man I've been lonely. And it isn't just the snow. I went to a little meet and great baby shower for a new girl in my ward. It was awesome and sad all in one. It was so nice to see and talk to adults. But also made me still feel distanced from everyone. I went into Primary a few weeks after moving into the ward. It is has been rough. I love the kids I teach, but my natural inclination is to be much more shy and introverted. So having that extra distance of not being with the other adults on Sunday is making it so hard for me to make any real friendships.

So while it was awesome to be around adults. I could also see that some of the people who are newer than me have already made better connections than me.

And I'm just in a bit of a lonely funk right now. Honestly not sure quite what to do to change it. Life is so busy that I almost don't have time to do anything about it. I am barely and many days not even able to keep up. But yet my soul is lonely.


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