Ramblings of life

I don’t think anyone really reads my blog anymore, and that is actually okay with me.  I’m pretty sporadic about posting and I don’t know that my life is all that interesting.  But I still want to keep some journaling so this is more for me than others. 

Life doesn’t slow down.  I think I’ve finally learned and accepted this fact.  I pretty much always think we are crazy busy no matter how hard I try for us not to be.  And I used to think…..once we are done with________ than life will slow down.   Now I’ve learned that the blank just gets filled in with something else.  :)

So life right now consists of a lot of doing it on my own.  James travels M-F now; meaning leaving Monday morning like 4am and getting back Friday night usually 6-7pm.  It isn’t a permanent thing- I think I would actually lose my mind if that were the case.  But he’s been doing it for about 3 months and probably has one more month to go.  Some weeks are good and some weeks I’m kinda a wreck.  Last week was an emotional wreck week- being 7 months pregnant with your 4th kid doesn’t help.  This week is a little better so far.  But it means learning to just get things done.  Not much use waiting for James to do it as well Saturdays fill up fast when that is the only real day you are home.  It also means lots of doing bedtime alone- not my fav.  But it means a weekly date night every week since that is now high priority.  It means a better job that James loves and a much happier husband.  So for now I will suck it up and take it!  (And maybe eat a lot more chocolate)

Consecration

Sunday thoughts:

To do with sacred dedication. What in my daily life do I do with sacred dedication?

Also look up;

Elder Maxwell talk called "Settle This in your hearts"

Travel adventures

I'm on my way...sort of. I booked my tickets to have really short layovers. It is a long trip to Argentina and I don't travel well so I wanted to minimize as much as possible. Yeah apparently that is a bad idea. My first flight got delayed. Delayed by so much I missed my connection. 

I was just going to go home and fly out tomorrow but James insisted I take the option to stay in a hotel in Houston for a night. I'm not spontaneous. I don't like the unknown. The idea of figuring out another airport and how to get to a hotel and back to the airport, etc kinda gives me anxiety. But I'm supposed to go and enjoy a quiet night to myself. Maybe see a movie tomorrow. Hang out and rest. Relax...  So I'm going to try not to let it all freak me out. I'm going to be adventurous and enjoy my night without kids. 

Well that is once I actually get there. Currently just sitting at the airport in KC. But the plane has come and I will board soon.....

When my kids take pictures

I love when I find my surprise pictures from my kids. Often I know they are taking photos but sometimes I don't. I'm always intrigued and humored by the photos they take. So here is a little joy and everyday life from Ben.
























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Get back in your bed

I'm currently sitting outside Eli's room. I just finished folding a load of laundry on the floor. And I'm sitting here repeatedly saying nope get back in your bed. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh the wonderful world of twos. For quite a few weeks bedtime has been a battle. Battle of wills. Eli has won a few nights but hopefully the war will ultimately go to me. I've tried locking him in his room. We currently have the light bulbs unscrewed so he can't play with the lights all night. And yet there is still plenty of wailing and gnashing of teeth. Tonight's strategy.... Trying for quiet. I'm letting his door be open but not letting him come out. Hoping if we can conquer the getting out of bed then nighttime will go more smoothly. Time will tell. As a parent you learn, even if the plan makes perfect sense it may not work. I don't have the time to sit outside his room every night for hours. Nor will my butt bone handle the floor that long. But tonight we will try it. And try to remember that I should cherish his littleness because this won't last forever.


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Do you smell cheese?

I was trying to get the house back in order before heading out to a baby shower.  I was upstairs doing laundry and had just started a load.  I went into the hall and smelled a weird sort of cheese smell.  I went into my room and the smell went away.  I thought that was odd.  But in my busy state I was trying hard to finish getting laundry done. 

About 10 minutes later, Ben comes up.  “Umm mommy….Eli is downstairs spraying parmesan cheese everywhere.”

Yes, the weird cheese smell was parmesan cheese.  Which now covered pretty much my entire wood floor.  From the front door, across the wood path, throughout the kitchen and dining room.  And let me tell you that stuff is hard to sweep up.  Just moist enough it sticks the broom, but fine enough that it is hard to get it all. 

Boys!

Thank you Walter

Tonight I am thankful for the movie Secret Life of Walter Mitty. If you haven't seen it you should. It is beautiful and sweet and leaves your heart feeling warm.

It reconnected me with my dad in the best of ways tonight. One of my biggest lessons of my dad being so sick was to cherish time with those we love. To really live life to its fullest. I knew my time was numbered with him and numbered much shorter than I would have ever wished. Anytime he called I seriously dropped everything to be with him. We did breakfast a minimum of once a week. I took him to appointments. It was some of my most cherish times, because I could really recognize how special it was. I would watch him with my babies and try so hard to mentally burn the images into my memory. It was my ghost cat pictures if you will.

Watching the movie just made remember those days with him and how wonderful and exciting it was to really be in the moment. Often my life is so full and I feel like I'm running every day all day long. And truly with my two boys I kinda am. But I hope I can refocus a bit. That I can recognize those moments again. Those glimpses of the purpose of life.


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